Inner Truth

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Dear ones,
It’s not your job to save the world
Though you may feel it heavy on your bones
Like the weight of a thousand tomorrows
Crashing down like an angry wave
Which slips violently onto shore
And back out again with only darkness on its lips

Carrying sand, shells, sediment
Churning the contents of the shallow wading pools,
Disrupting the fishes at the shore,
Creating a subtle new reality after its retreat

Only to give way to the next,
Relentless in its consistency and calm,
Churning and changing in the gentle light,
Never leaving the shore
The same as it was found

And so, in your daily walk,
When the call becomes a battle cry,
Let the waves land upon your heart with love,
Churning up the sediment of fear,
Disrupting the pattern of resistance,
Creating a new truth –
A truth which is only found inside

©SpiritLed 2017

Alive

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People are alive,
Exploding from nothingness
Into awakening of senses,
Angry, restless, urging to step out
Make their presence known in this changing world

Where do we fit in?

How do we carry the light of justice and truth
Without getting burned in our own flame?

The sign of backlash is inevitable
In a world so full of passion,
So full of hunger for a new existence
Truth no longer gets us hanged or drowned,
Yet it still takes years sometimes to set us free

And so that freedom we seek
Must come from within,
Chains may hold our bodies
But nothing except lies and fear
May constrain the soul

©SpiritLed 2016

Transforming Chaos into Love

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It’s been a roller coaster of a week, right?  For so many, it feels like the world is on the brink of monumental change.  And perhaps it is.  Is that such a bad thing?  I suppose it depends on who you ask.

What we do know is that, if nothing else, is that it feels chaotic and uncertain. 

So what to do now?  How to move forward? This question has different answers, depending on your worldview, beliefs, and values.  Spiritual teaching tells us that fighting against something only gives us more of it.  Yet we all need to find ways to feel safe and honored in our world, our communities, our homes, and our own bodies.  And to help others feel safe and honored as well.  In contemplating over the last week on how best to do this, I keep coming back to LOVE.

It’s a platitude, yes.  But I feel it’s become that because we’ve never given it the teeth it deserves.  We reduce love to nothing more than an emotion, when in reality, it’s an ACTION.  An intentional, daily choice to get up, take care of ourselves, other  people, and our world, and then do it again tomorrow.

Sadly, most of us don’t make love a daily action.  And understandably so.  We’re busy.  We see hate and indifference and injustice all around us.  It’s overwhelming.  And now here we sit, surrounded by chaos.

How then, can we transform this chaos into actionable love?

Do your homework – It is imperative in this day and age to be discerning.  We have an overload of information available to us at any given moment, and not all of is accurate or truthful.  What’s worse, much of what we read or watch only serves to support what we already believe.

If a story evokes a strong emotional response, that’s a trigger warning.  Instead of sharing, do your research.  Question everything.  Check sources.  Check your source’s sources.  Don’t share unverified memes and articles (here’s a link to fake, misleading, and satirical news sources).  Read up on history.  Read across your political and religious lines.  Information that is unkind or unbelievable is also often untrue, so follow that rule your mom taught you: “If you can’t say something nice, don’t say anything at all.”    Better yet, go sit alone in prayer or meditation for a while and contemplate:  Is this kind? Is it true?  Is it necessary?

Why is this important?  Discernment is a valuable life skill.  It keeps us safe and healthy.  It helps us grow our natural gift of intuition.  And more importantly, love equals truth.  Love doesn’t need to lie to make its point or sway others to its side.

Lend people an ear (and an eye) – We want to be seen and heard.  We need to be seen and heard.  It’s basic human connection.  We want to know that our opinions, values, beliefs, traditions, and voices are important and they matter.  Because they are and they do.  And we don’t tend to listen to others until we feel heard ourselves.

Women and men sit in circles all over the world honoring each other’s truth, listening to each other’s voices, and witnessing each other’s range of emotions.  Without judgment.  Without debate.   It can be done.  People the world over also hold intense discussions around topics on which they have different views and beliefs.  They do it without name calling.  Or condemnation.  Or threat.  Or silence.  It can be done.

Why is this important?  As we open ourselves to other viewpoints and opinions, it paves the way for common ground.  Moreover, this kind of engagement – listening, witnessing, allowing for and encouraging differences and debate – relies on vulnerability, and love thrives in vulnerability.

Give love a voice – We’ve been taught that love is patient and kind, never envious or boastful or proud.  Not easily angered not keeping a record of wrongs.  This is nice, but frankly it also can keep us comfortable and tethered to passivity.

Sometimes, love needs to be loud.  Love needs to growl and howl and make its presence known.  Love needs to take center stage, even if it is booed.  Love needs to be outraged. Love needs to have a voice.  An angry voice.  A powerful voice.  A voice that speaks despite quivering with fear. A voice that makes us sit up and take notice.  A voice that demands a better future.

Why is this important?  Passive love feels nice for a while, but it doesn’t move us forward. Instead, we risk complacency and comfort, which makes us easy targets.  Love does not have to be quiet and submissive to get its point across.

Going forward, I encourage you to transform the chaos and give love a voice in your own way.  Sing, shout, dance, heal, protest, cry, celebrate, laugh, write, speak, study, collaborate, be the change you want to see.

And whatever you do, do it with the voice of love.

Love & light,
Ashley

P.S. If you’re feeling chaotic and need some love, reach out to me.  Through the end of November, I’m offering free distance healing.  Just contact me and you’ll be feeling the love in no time!

How to Trust Your Inner Guidance and Start to Heal

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Throughout our lives, we make a lot of choices.  Some work out, some don’t.  Over time, as we look back and reflect, we often see our mistakes as some kind of internal flaw, an obvious defect that, had it been corrected much earlier, would have changed the course of our lives.  This thinking leads to a deep lack of trust – in people, in situations, and most especially in ourselves.

When we feel we can’t be trusted to make the best decisions for our own lives, it jars our belief in ourselves as a person.  We feel unworthy and in need of someone or something outside of us to help guide and direct us.  We start to give up our power, our direction, our belief that we can take care of ourselves in the best way.

Sometimes, this trust is broken by an external event.  Our children leave home and need us less, leaving us feeling empty and unsure of what to do next.  Our spouse makes the decision to move on without us.  We face a traumatic loss that causes us to question everything.  No matter our great choices, life is now different and our trust in the patterns and expectations of life are shattered.

Grief, anger, fear, shame, and sadness are all emotional results of loss of trust.  When we lose trust in ourselves, we grieve this loss.  We carry a sadness that can be masked and avoided by busyness yet still lurks below the surface. We feel shame that we made these choices or allowed these things to happen to us, even when we didn’t actually have that kind of control.  We get angry at the unfairness of it all, yet retreat back to our corners in fear that one more wrong choice will create more pain.

I remember the day someone told me I carried a great sadness.  I was shocked.  I didn’t feel sad.  What did I even have to be sad about?  Then I started observing myself more closely, especially in the quiet times when I was alone.  I recall sitting in my car one morning during my commute and feeling the heavy weight of sadness like someone had draped a wet blanket over me.  It was both nauseating and suffocating.

Had I always been this sad?  How could I have avoided feeling this for so long?

It wasn’t until I started to allow more stillness into my life and to peel back the layers of blame for choices that didn’t turn out like I’d hope – so many not even my own – that I started to release the sadness, grief, anger, shame, and fear.

In my personal work and work with others, I’ve realized that much of our avoidance of issues comes from overthinking to the point that we drown out our inner guidance.  Our inner guidance tells us that we ARE worthy, we ARE to be trusted, we DO make good choices for ourselves, and we CAN’T control other people or take the blame for their choices, even if they affect us.  Yet, to get to that place, we have to sit through the voices the yell the opposite.  We have to be still long enough to tell those voices to be quiet, so we can hear the real truth within.   And it’s difficult.  One of the most difficult things we will ever do is to confront those voices that steer us away from our inner guidance and truth.  It’s also one of the most uplifting and healing.

I offer you a few techniques that have helped me and other women who’ve reached that place where they’re ready for radical change.  That place where the risk of staying put and accepting the lack of trust is no longer worth the painful side effects.  That point in time where something inside stirs and whispers, “enough is enough.”

  • Notice how you feel in your body – We often get stuck in that place of thinking too much and not allowing ourselves to be—be quiet, be sad, be grief-stricken, be us.  There are some recognizable signs that we’re in that place.  We feel stress, worry, and doubt.  We don’t know how to move forward or make a decision.  We feel “buzzy” or heavy energy around our heads, heart, and/or belly.  When we recognize these are signs of being stuck, of now allowing trust in our inner guidance, we can find a safe, quiet place to be still and work through it.
  • Be still and allow– As much as the idea of getting really quiet with your own thoughts may sound frightening, it’s a necessary step.  You have to allow yourself the space to get past all the loud thoughts so you can get to the quiet ones.  This may take time, if you’re not used to it.  Start with just a few minutes a few days a week and build up.  You didn’t reach this place overnight; you don’t have to unravel it overnight either.
  • Drop down – When we’re overthinking, we’re in our heads.  That’s why we feel lots of energy there.  However, inner guidance comes from the heart or the gut.  When you want guidance but can’t seem to quiet your thoughts, focus your attention on your heart space.  Imagine a beautiful, healing pink bubble of light situated right in front of your heart, glowing with peace and calm.  Keep focusing on the bubble until your breathing slows naturally and your racing thoughts begin to clear.  Return to the bubble as often as necessary.

If you’re at a point in your life where you’re feeling the weight of sadness, grief, anger, shame, or fear affecting you and you’re ready to do something about it, I stand with you on your journey, and I summon for you the collective energy of all the women before you who have taken this step.

Trust that you are worthy.  Trust that you are enough.  Trust that the healing can begin.  And if you need one-on-one support, feel free to reach out to me.

Love and light,
Ashley

P.S. Click HERE to learn more about the healing work I do.